Amen, we don't want to bring someone down, we want to lift them up!! I feel I needed to read this when I did.
Sometimes people get busy, and they have trials of their own, and the person in need becomes dis-couraged, and all they want is someone to talk to. I wish God would send a human being that I could talk to.
I don't aim to victimize myself, I'm just searching for answers. I want someone to talk to, where I will not feel judged, and I want to open up to people who sincerely care.
Problem seems to me; how can you tell who truly does care? It seems I have ran into too many people (strangers) that I have trusted more than my own family???
I love my family, don't get me wrong, but I feel they don't meet my emotional needs. Then Jesus lets me know, I need him, and He is all that I need. I struggle with not having a human being in front of me that I can tell everything to, that will not judge me, and that will just listen...
It seems that I talk to people, and I use to talk through the whole conversation, it was always me talking, me interrupting and not being aware of not letting another talk until the long thoughts have settled. I let things build up in my mind, brushed them off, and forgot to heal the wound with a bandage. It became infected. Under the scrapes and scars, there is a mountain, and some holes that I seemed to have made along the way. Due to my not allowing the LORD to show me Faith, and trust in Him.
I need so much emotional support, and nurturing from lack of childhood growth in nurturing. I want to be nurturing to kids that never got that nurturing. It's almost like I could change my past, by helping and nurturing kids that have that void, but I can't, only God can..
So why would I want to be a motherly figure when I can't even be supportive to myself?? I know I am insecure, and I have lack of self-esteem; I feel that no one cares, because no one asks, or is concerned... and sometimes it is at the wrong time to show concern, especially at work.
I cry out and, sometimes I just feel discouraged, and no one cares. I know that is not true, I just need a reminder that people do CARE!!! People do in fact have their own problems they are dealing with, or not, and causing infection on the inside. We need to let the LORD help us with these problems!! We can't deal with these problems ourselves, or judge another for their problems; that's between them and God. "Me and God"
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